Review of year 2011

Time flies, Human changes.

I looked at my blog post on 30/11/2010.

I found myself quite silly... Haha!

I changed too!

I do not know whether I am doing it right or not;

(I mean in people's eyes) but I know

I am just making decision following my heart.

Review for the year 2011:

January: A really challenging moment to go through. 

The one I love and he loves me most left me.. My dear Daddy.

It is so hard for me to take it but I know... Life has to move on.

Made a promise to stay strong and do my best to look after my mum.

February: Still a tough period to go.

Whole family still couldn't let go the pain of losing someone we love.

It's so painful to see when others having a happy family and you don't.

I know I miss my dad so much but I couldn't do anything.

I can only stay strong and pretend I don't really bother about this.

March: Uni's semester started.

Getting better and joined Dance Club (TUDC)...

Know a bunch of good friends who don't bother about your past.

What bring us together is the passion for dance...

We could dance the whole night long just for the sake of dance!

April:: A month that full of hope.

TUDC 1st performance got compliments from many people.

and my small lil dream... Terpsichore has feedback from Principal.

Things are getting better and I feel I'm on the track...

and this is the month I started to play Badminton!

May: Month of confusion.

Things got lil messed up... Full of tests, assignments and the concert.

Feels like your brain is blank and can't think of anything.

June: Like & Love.

Terpsichore finally done! Better than expected... =)

Final Exam finally down! Way worse than expected =(

24th... Day when I got into a relationship again~

With fear, with doubt but with trust too...

July: Fun VS 'Fan'

Had a fun trip to Malacca! With him and a group of good friends!

Minus the spending money and crowd part.. I think the rest is BEST!

Mum knew about us... and thankfully she didn't object...

She complained a lot but oh well... sometimes, I'm partially deaf =)

Exam results is superbly bad! Almost failed =(

August: Normal Life

Still miss my dad at times.. Thankful that someone is there for me.

Life still goes on and on and on and on and on and..... on =p

September: Thailand Trip

Awesome Pawsome and whateversome!!!

Nice food... Nice stuff.... Except the creepy hotel toilet =p

October: Full of fats

Tried to spend some time to weigh myself and

OH MY GOD!!! I gained a lot of weight since i stopped dancing! =/

November: Stressed

Studied so hard for exam because I wanted to show my mum

I wont neglect my studies even if I'm in a relationship.

December: What a Life

Started working in GB... A company with good bosses and colleagues.

I know I have a lot to learn and yes... Will be here for 3 months time =)

Langkawi Trip... All was good except the OVER-BUDGET part.

Like I said, everywhere is fine as long as u are with ur love ones =)

6th Monthsary.. something that not so good to think about

because it hurts me a lot.... like really a lot.....

Exam results is out and I got 2 Distinction, HAPPY =D

Done reviewing and I think my 2011 is pretty awesome!

Lose a lot... Gain a lot.. and Learn a lot...

Hope I got a better 2012 =)

I think the things on top are pretty cool and I got most of it...

Technically I got all.. but I'm going to get myself with better stuff...

TADA!!! Enchantuer Paris Perfume...

I haven't got it yet but I think soon =)

Not that I like perfume but the free accessories following it...

Nice vintage style bracelet.. Muaha!

Hope there is still stocks =)

I shall set the resolutions but wait till the next post...

then I'm going to really sit down and think....

But whatever it is I'm going to do...

Sick

Terribly sick!!!!

Diagnosed: Fever, Flu, Cough

and now... my throat feeling weird...
I dont know why.. but Im worried ... =(

Thank God....
There is him fetching me to consult doctor, back home...
Feeling so blessed that there is someone willing to take care of me...

Hey you, Thank You!
I really appreciate it......
*I LOVE YOU*

Rose

His first time buying flowers for girl;
Her first time receiving flowers from guy.

This is actually very very sweet....
She was feeling so touched and her tears drop again...

This time is not because feeling hurt
but the feeling of sincerity...

For the sincerity,
she willing to throw away the hurtful feeling...

Christmas Eve

24th, for me it doesn't only mean Christmas Eve but
a day which was supposed to be an important day to be marked in my life.

Life is like that, when you starting to care more...
The other people will start to bother lesser and sometimes
they will just let the important things slipped their mind.
Or maybe, they don't see it as important.
The truth is there are something way more important than that.

At the very beginning, I didn't hope for much because
previous experience told me I shouldn't have bother so much.
But someone told me, I should because it actually matters.
As time passes, I viewed it as an important event...
but someone just destroyed my hope.

It's like everything repeats...
The disappointment, sorrow, tears, anger...

I do not know how...

But I'm trying very hard to suppress my sadness.

Maybe because I'm trying hard to show how much I love?

I know I am not someone who love most.

Maybe someone didn't realise it himself.

But I know... So I'm doing so much to show him...

At the end, what I got???

At the end, he still didn't stay...
And he'll never know why am I preparing that as a gift...
And now, I still do not know how should I forgive him...

When I have to face the truth that I am not whom he loves most again?

PMR

As a sister,
I should be happy for my brother who got good results.
But I would be happier if that one lil 'B' can turn into an 'A'.

I know he had already done his best... so...
I shall prepare RM100 from my purse as a gift...

Hmm, broke month!
But for good things, I have to! =)

Langkawi Day 3

Last Day,
A day to go back my home...

No camera, No photos... and most importantly,
NO MONEY...

Hahaha!!! XD

Langkawi Day 1

Nice villa... With a seaside view.
Nice beach... With a can of cooling bear.
Nice friends... With a lot of laughter.

That's the up side of the Langkawi Trip =)

Stoning

Working in the office...
And currently feeling quite boring...
Bosses are not in and there is only blogging and facebooking....

Technically I'm stoning...
and awaiting for the Langkawi Trip!

Sunshine, Beaches...
Oh well, I don't swim but I do like to sit at the sea side
and do some.... beach-watching?
Haha.. Technically, I'll still be stoning too but
at least I get to lie down or sleep whenever I want?

and most importantly, there is someone you love always be by your side =)

Fate and Faith

14th of December, my mum's birthday.

It wakes up my memories.

Last year, he was so weak till

he could only lie on the sofa and celebrate with her.

Yet, he still sang a birthday song for her with a weak voice;

bought a bouquet of roses for her.

This year, he is not here anymore.

Everyone misses him but he is not going to come back anymore.

My heart aches because I still miss him so much.

Life without worries

These days feeling so tired.
I just do not have the mood to move around.

I am not sure why am I feeling this way,
But I'm just so exhausted....
Nothing can make me feel interested.

I just feel like keeping quiet and wait for the time to pass.
Sometimes I just think that I'm suitable to be a nun...
Don't you think so? Hahaha!

How good my life will be if I don't have to think about money?
Just spending my time to do some art crafts and...
maybe do some cooking...
Won't it be more fun?

Nothing else

Dear girls,

How many of us actually found the guy who truly respect us?
How many of us actually found the guy who put us ahead of his lust?

During schooling age, teachers always tell us to protect ourselves.
But when we girls fall in love, all the advice are thrown to nowhere.

Why is that so?
Is it just because we want to make the one we love happy?
or is it because in ourselves, we do have the lust too?

I think in every girl's mind, there must be complicated feelings...
Every button from your clothes removed, makes you more worried...
And sometimes in your brain, you'll just tell yourself...
This must be stopped.

Because most of the time... what girls want is just a tight hug
and nothing else.

When I am no longer a teenager

A lovely surprise starts the day when clock strikes 12.
Well decorated cupcakes and a card which SEALED WITH LOVE!
Hahahaha.... An interesting one as no one else besides my family
ever bought me  birthday cake =)

And with my smart thought,
I turned off my birthday notification on FB...
and trying to see how many actually remembers my birthday...
but oh well... Guess less than 10 I guess...

I appreciated to those who have the heart...
Call me thru phone and wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
And not forgetting the sms too... =)

And a lovely dinner, 80% well-cooked by a butterfly...
Lamb chop Awesome! Mushroom soup still edible!
and Mashed potato Heavenly Delicious! XD

And what matters most is actually the heart...
the effort counts.....
Thank you so so much!!! =)

I think I had a great birthday celebration this year =)

Mars

I am an alien from Mars.
I do not blend in with humans.
Oh my god! This is so weird!

But there is nothing much we can do...
Because I am not belongs to earth...
So sad.... Maybe I should take my UFO
fly back to the Mars and be alone...

Nervous

Tomorrow will be the first day of working...

Hmm... Good luck to myself! =)

Awaiting...

Awaiting the moment when things are all perfect =)